Merlin's gone.

[poltr1]

I came home today and checked on Merlin. His body was cold.

Thanks to all who've offered hugs and well-wishes. This isn't the first time I lost a pet -- Garion in 1993, Bubastis and Lady in 2002, Oreo in 2004. (To be accurate, Lady and Oreo were R's cats.) It's a sad, familiar place.

I'm asking myself if there was something I could have done differently -- taken better care of the litterbox, played with him more. And I wonder if he was in pain the past few days.

Comments

I'm so sorry, but it's nice that he chose his own time to go

[yourmommma.livejournal.com]

Also I wanted to add that you shouldn't beat yourself up at all about his illness. Kidney disease in cats and dogs is one of those things where they have slightly abnormal values for a really long time and then there is a precipitous decline and usually death soon after. And there is very little that can be done for it. Even in humans usually a transplant is the only hope of a "cure" and only a few veterinary hospitals will even try transplants. Meanwhile pre-transplant he would need to be on dialysis and again only a few University-type vet clinics are capable of that.

Merlin was loved and cared for and he's up there at the bridge reacquainting himself with his former housemates. He knows you're sad but he is at peace.

{{{hug}}}