Periods of deep loneliness......
Oct. 17th, 2005 11:08 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
poltr1OVFF hasn't even happened yet, and I'm already feeling post-con blues.
There are times in my life when I feel all alone, even though I may be in a room full of people at the time.
I'm tired of always having to make introductions or initiating conversation.
Old emotional wound: I remember in 7th grade, I tried to join a group of classmates for lunch, and they kept telling me, "Goodbye, Jim." So I ate my lunch alone.
That's when I learned to not invite myself into conversations or people's lives. I've since called this "vampire rules" -- I don't go where I'm not invited.
People rarely call or send me email. And none of my good friends are in town.
If fandom's a family, then I certainly feel like the black sheep of the family.
I know everyone's busy. I'm busy too. But not so busy that I don't think about people.
There are times in my life when I feel all alone, even though I may be in a room full of people at the time.
I'm tired of always having to make introductions or initiating conversation.
Old emotional wound: I remember in 7th grade, I tried to join a group of classmates for lunch, and they kept telling me, "Goodbye, Jim." So I ate my lunch alone.
That's when I learned to not invite myself into conversations or people's lives. I've since called this "vampire rules" -- I don't go where I'm not invited.
People rarely call or send me email. And none of my good friends are in town.
If fandom's a family, then I certainly feel like the black sheep of the family.
I know everyone's busy. I'm busy too. But not so busy that I don't think about people.
