Another Hour of the Wolf.....
Apr. 10th, 2006 03:22 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
poltr1....in which I wake up in the middle of the night and can't get back to sleep.
A large part of it is my current job and money situation.
The other part is how I'm going to dig myself out from under the mountain of clutter I've built for myself. I want to take the paper files and cardboard I've accumulated over the years, and take them to the dump for recycling, instead of throwing it all in the trash. But I'd need a pickup truck to do that. (Renting one isn't an option for me right now.)
Why did I save the paper? Because in the late 70s/early 80s, filing became my hobby. I liked saving newspaper clippings and things I wanted to read again or have on hand. Knowing that I have certain things on hand is like a security blanket for me. But the volume I now have is unmanageable, and with a child to raise, I no longer have the time for this pastime-turned-obsession.
I saved (and trash-picked) cardboard boxes because I thought they could be re-used. And some of them, I did. But now it's time to collapse the ones that haven't already been collapsed and get rid of them as quickly as possible, so I can have more room in my garage. I thought about using the local freecycle list, but the ones who don't get the digest and are on broadband seem to get most of the goods, and there are some logistic problems I see with distribution, such as having a dry place to store them (other than a garage or offsite storage).
I look around the condo and wonder, "If I had to sell, I don't think people would buy this because of all the clutter inside the house."
But then, I think of the people who lost their belongings to natural disasters, like tornadoes, floods, hurricanes, and fire. These people are able to move on with their lives. Why can't I? Why won't I?
I know that I can't do this myself, and that I need help.
A large part of it is my current job and money situation.
The other part is how I'm going to dig myself out from under the mountain of clutter I've built for myself. I want to take the paper files and cardboard I've accumulated over the years, and take them to the dump for recycling, instead of throwing it all in the trash. But I'd need a pickup truck to do that. (Renting one isn't an option for me right now.)
Why did I save the paper? Because in the late 70s/early 80s, filing became my hobby. I liked saving newspaper clippings and things I wanted to read again or have on hand. Knowing that I have certain things on hand is like a security blanket for me. But the volume I now have is unmanageable, and with a child to raise, I no longer have the time for this pastime-turned-obsession.
I saved (and trash-picked) cardboard boxes because I thought they could be re-used. And some of them, I did. But now it's time to collapse the ones that haven't already been collapsed and get rid of them as quickly as possible, so I can have more room in my garage. I thought about using the local freecycle list, but the ones who don't get the digest and are on broadband seem to get most of the goods, and there are some logistic problems I see with distribution, such as having a dry place to store them (other than a garage or offsite storage).
I look around the condo and wonder, "If I had to sell, I don't think people would buy this because of all the clutter inside the house."
But then, I think of the people who lost their belongings to natural disasters, like tornadoes, floods, hurricanes, and fire. These people are able to move on with their lives. Why can't I? Why won't I?
I know that I can't do this myself, and that I need help.
