Periods of deep loneliness......

[poltr1]

OVFF hasn't even happened yet, and I'm already feeling post-con blues.

There are times in my life when I feel all alone, even though I may be in a room full of people at the time.

I'm tired of always having to make introductions or initiating conversation.

Old emotional wound: I remember in 7th grade, I tried to join a group of classmates for lunch, and they kept telling me, "Goodbye, Jim." So I ate my lunch alone.

That's when I learned to not invite myself into conversations or people's lives. I've since called this "vampire rules" -- I don't go where I'm not invited.

People rarely call or send me email. And none of my good friends are in town.

If fandom's a family, then I certainly feel like the black sheep of the family.

I know everyone's busy. I'm busy too. But not so busy that I don't think about people.

Comments

[peteralway.livejournal.com]

I have to admit that my first OVFF was such a magical experience that it can't possible live up to that again, which is kind of sad.

So aren't you bringing some sort of syntheziser-keyboard to OVFF that you wanted to play bass on? I have a song that could use a couple of staccato cellos, and prosthetic ones would do--I find I can't accompany myself on "Polystyrene Shipwright" without stumbling badly and I'd like to take at least one shot at it with accompniment.

You're on.

[poltr1]

I'm planning to,barring any family emergency.

Thanks for giving me the heads-up on the sound; it'll give me a chance to develop a setting. (Got lots of knobs to tweak.) And we should probably rehearse it together a couple times before we actually perform it for people.

As my button says, "Plays Well With Others".

Re: You're on.

[peteralway.livejournal.com]

Here is a .pdf score for the song in question.

Here is a midi sequence for the song in question I'm not sure I can quite sing it that fast in reality.